A Surrendered Soul

Hey guys! Long time no see! I hope everyone is doing well. I have finally decided to pick up blogging again.

Goodness, I do not know if y'all feel like this sometimes (if you are a Christian, you most likely have before), where you feel like you are not close to God, but you want to be so badly. I felt like I couldn't get close to God no matter how hard I tried.  Let me tell you, if this were me being lukewarm, lukewarm is not a fun place to be. For me, it felt like I wanted so badly to get close to God, but it felt like I just could not. But then I was reminded… “Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with that person, and they with me.”- Revelation 3:20 and “You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.”- Jeremiah 29:13

God is close to us even when it is hard to see Him or feel Him. In my heart I knew that I had to fully surrender my heart, as well as all of my fears and worries that I had. I was reminded that God is right there waiting on us to come to him, to run into his arms again and again. I envision this as going down my own path, feeling far from God, and then turning around, and He is right in front of me, almost like I never left. How refreshing that is to know that God is RIGHT THERE WAITING FOR YOU AND ME. All we have to do is turn around and run into His arms.

Surrender. When you think of surrender, you probably think of giving up something… Sin, food, a way of life, money, etc.  Surrender is much more than that. Surrender is laying your life at Jesus’ feet and saying, “You can have it all. Use me! It's so hard to surrender when we want to be in control of everything in our lives: our job, financial situations, relationships, family, fear… Whatever it may be. This could be because if we let go and surrender these things to God, we lose a sense of control, we feel out of place, or like everything is going to or is crashing down. We may even question God and his plan for us and the future. But who are we to question God? Who are we to question the creator of the universe, the God who individually sculpted us in our mother's womb?! He knows the future. He knows what is going to happen… It's not a surprise to him. I have to remind myself of this often. Surrendering lets God have control of our lives. It lets Him give us peace in hard situations and in our everyday lives. I have been crucified with Christ. “It is no longer I who live, but Christ who lives in me. And the life I now live in the flesh I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” (Galatians 2:20). We have a choice every day to surrender to God and let Christ live in and through us. We have a choice every day and every moment to obey God. We have a choice to talk to God, and a choice to draw near to him, because when we do that, he draws near to us.